March 07, 2019

How Do You Like Them Apples

March 07, 2019/ Bev

We ran out of apples two days ago. Two. Days. Ago. I should know better…

February 19, 2019

Can You Imagine?

February 19, 2019/ Bev

Today was a hard day. The truth is, most days are. Today also happens to mark the one year anniversary of Conor’s diagnosis…

November 24, 2018

Call Baapa

November 24, 2018/ Bev

“Call Baapa. Call Baapa. Call Baapa. Call Baapa. Call Baapa.”

Conor repeated this over and over and over (and over and over) while he paged through a book on the living room floor. He was stuck…

October 05, 2018

Does Not

October 05, 2018/ Bev

We were walking into the Children’s Museum when my phone rang. It wasn’t a number I had saved but it looked familiar. As soon as I realized who the number belonged to, the phone stopped ringing. It was the Genetics Clinic…

September 07, 2018

The R Word

September 07, 2018/ Bev

Retard. Mentally retarded. Mental retardation. These are not words that you want to hear in association with your child. These are fighting words. You call a kid retarded...you can wait for mama bear to come get you. She will come. And you won't need to wait long either.

August 27, 2018

Eventually

August 27, 2018/ Bev

There is so much I have wanted to say lately but when I try to type it out, I get stuck. I want to talk about Laine and I want to share all about our summer. I'll get there. Eventually. But tonight I'm overwhelmed and I am ready to share why.

July 11, 2018

Laine Nicole

July 11, 2018/ Bev

Welcome to the world, Laine!

May 30, 2018

When You Don't Know

May 30, 2018/ Bev

I had an interesting conversation with some of my coworkers at lunch a few weeks ago. Of course we talked about our kids. My pregnancy came into the conversation and so did transitioning Conor to his new room. Then the topic of potty training came up…

April 27, 2018

Progress

April 27, 2018/ Bev

Progress is a hard topic for me to write about. Up until my last post everything I have shared on this blog has been written in the middle of the night when I couldn’t sleep. My mind has an especially hard time shutting down these days and I find myself word vomiting into the notes section on my iPhone at 2 AM…

April 25, 2018

Bad Dog

April 25, 2018/ Bev

A rite of passage for any kid with a dog is being able to blame things on the dog. Right? I never had one growing up but I think I could have used "the dog did it" to get out of more than one mess…

April 06, 2018

How Is Your Pregnancy Going?

April 06, 2018/ Bev

My pregnancy? I love being pregnant. I'm the definition of the annoying friend who feels like a damn goddess when she is pregnant and has zero complaints...

March 23, 2018

How Did You Know?

March 23, 2018/ Bev

Since sharing our story I have gotten quite a few questions. Most frequently, "How did you know?” How did we know? We didn't...

March 12, 2018

It's Weird

March 12, 2018/ Bev

I'm not sure how to describe some of the thoughts that have flooded my mind this past month. It feels like my future is being taken away from me one memory at a time...

March 07, 2018

Just Keep Swimming

March 07, 2018/ Bev

Do you believe that your dreams have meaning? Last night I had a dream that Conor and I were in a plane crash...

March 06, 2018

It's Okay

March 06, 2018/ Bev

It's okay not to know what to say. I don't know what to say either. I'm not expecting you to say all the right words. I don't think those words exist...

March 03, 2018

Fear

March 03, 2018/ Bev

Basements. Bears. Guns.

You could say that these are fears of mine. Not debilitating, irrational fears or anything...

March 02, 2018

Fragile

March 02, 2018/ Bev

Perhaps one of the worst things you can do as a new mother is compare your child to all of the other children around you. I am a worrier by nature (thanks, mom) so of course I am the queen of comparison...